I feel so strongly that what is 'falling apart' in our world is the natural consequence of something overwhelmingly evolutionary. Something that is calling us to cease our reliance on the irrelevant and the unreal. To drop the old consciousness of fear that drove us into separation from our true natures and separation from each other. The impulse is clear: drop what blocks you from revealing more Light and more Love, connecting with others, and acting from your heart.
This all came to me as a result of running out of makeup. Yes, makeup. Irrelevant, right? I have been running out of makeup for weeks now. In the past, I would have rushed out and replenished my supply. Because I had to maintain my look and be pretty. But over the last few weeks, it has felt entirely unimportant. Entirely irrelevant to the greater impulse for change that is afoot in me and in the world.
Yesterday, as I contemplated meeting my friend at a restaurant near the water, I realized I would have to go naked. I scrounged for a little lipstick - but that was it. Oh, oh, I thought. Then I thought...oh, goodie, I get to experience what is real, and true, and basic. I get to be with my friend -- a truly important and valuable experience. I get to put what I look like on the back burner. I get to experience and appreciate my friend. And there's a lot to appreciate. She's a beautiful, thoughtful, original soul. I get to appreciate that I have my car and that it has gas in it and that I have my health and it's a beautiful day.
My friend never misses a trick. She commented on my lack of makeup, and I said, yup, I am not wearing any. No excuses, no apology. She couldn't get over how Light seemed to be pouring out of my skin, shining out of my face. She grabbed her digital camera and started to take pictures. The sun was setting and the Light was shining through the windows. I could feel it on my cheeks. But I knew there was something more. She showed me the images. You don't even look like yourself, she said. Yup, I would have to agree. I didn't look like the self I had been attached to looking like -- but there was something more going on. In my face, I could see my mother's face -- and the fear she carried all her life. It was spilling out of me. The fear imprinted in her from the Depression, the fear of never having enough, the fear of not being good enough - no matter how accomplished she was, no matter how good her life had become. I saw all that in my face -- revealed in the Light. All the fear I had inherited from her- of not being or doing or having enough was leaving me. I realized I could let go of my reliance on all those structures, all those 'things' that kept those old beliefs in place.
As I sat there, the words of Unity Minister, Charles Fillmore came to me: "Desire...is the onward impulse of the ever-evolving soul." He wrote those words in the 1930's, I believe, during another time of vast change.
When I see these times through the lens of desire and the evolutionary soul, I see something profoundly exciting at play. We have been calling for this, haven't we? We have been calling for Oneness, community, cooperation, togetherness, an end to the illusion of separation, struggle and lack. Ask and ye shall receive. And to receive, we must change and grow. We must grow ourselves to be able to receive the changes -- the very changes we have called for. God's desire is for us to grow, to always grow. To remain static is to die. To become fully who we are here to become requires us to grow and change and let go of the old. And change comes with the appearance of loss. But what is lost is always replaced with something better. As Joseph Campbell reminds us, 'You cannot make an omelet without breaking eggs.'
I am being grown - every day now- beyond the ways I have isolated and insulated, judged myself or others, felt not good enough. It isn't comfortable and it isn't easy. I see my resistance. My desire to hold on to the way things have been. I know I am being catapulted beyond my old story. I know I am being coaxed to give up my reliance on the consciousness of 'what I can't live without'. Beyond needing to know the outcome. I am being asked to grow beyond my fears, and actually render fear irrelevant.
The waves of change are washing me clean of my past. Are you feeling this too? Can you relate to this impulse for change, growth and becoming?
You can go kicking and screaming into this good night -- or you can meet it with a sense of profound curiosity, reverence, adventure, and awe. Who am I? What am I being asked to become? Who did I come here to be? What is being called out of me to create? How am I meant to contribute? How can I play more? How can I express more love, appreciation and gratitude? How can I experience more abundance? Where am I being guided? How can I bring myself and the world more joy? How may I serve at the highest level possible? What now? What's next?
All I can say is: Let go and let's go!
Onward!
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